Archive for the ‘Socio-political’ Category

Understanding blogging, D&D, Life Expectancy, and Cancer

Thursday, May 9th, 2013

So the few regular readers here will have noticed that I’ve recently discovered Sarah Darkmagic’s blog and I highly recommend it. Especially since she just recently posted about life expectancy in medieval Europe (which is round about “health-wise” where most fantasy RPGs like D&D find themselves plus magic) and I had a few weeks ago gotten into a long drawn out email discussion about the same thing with my gaming group.

Sarah Darkmagic has it right on, in that the often-touted age of “35″ being the average life expectancy in the middle ages takes into account infant (age 5 and under) mortality. And that those that survived past age 5 (especially about age 15 +/- 5 years) would have a much higher life expectancy, usually around 55.

The reason it came up in my game was all because I informed my players that, for my campaign world, I had come up with rules governing (general all-inclusive) cancer (and the intent to write up Alzheimer’s). Understandably, my players did not really like the idea as no one wants their heroic character to die from such horrendous real world diseases. What got me on to making a “cancer rule set” is contained in the email below.

What prompted me to write in “full defense” mode in the email was because one player (who is, among other amazing things, a professional fitness trainer) responded that there is “very strong evidence that civilized diseases are linked to refined carbohydrates and sugar in the diet” and that his sage-like character in the game would espouse something like that. To which I [snarkingly] asked for evidence/sources. In not receiving anything from the player (and with other players adding to the discussion obesity, cholesterol, heart disease, etc.) I then went on to give my reasoning for including cancer (and Alzheimer’s).

In reading Sarah Darkmagic’s post on life expectancy, it made me realize that maybe some of my long-winded emails to my players would make for good blog posts, so the rest of what follows below the fold (attempting to use below-the-fold formatting) is from those emails with some editing for consistency.

(more…)

D&D, RPGs, and Sexism

Sunday, May 5th, 2013

Over the past couple of years the topic of sexism in D&D (and role-playing games in general and gaming in meta-general) has come to the forefront of online discussions (and hopefully irl conversations as well). Especially after Wizards of the Coast (WotC) artist Jon Schindehette publicly approached the topic of “Sexism in Fantasy” on WotC’s website last year (but overall, the topic of sexism in gaming is still very fresh, as can be seen by Aisha Tyler’s response to sexist comments about why she shouldn’t host E3 this year).

As a preamble note: when speaking about gender here, I am either referring to the real-world gender to which an individual identifies (including androgynous) or the in-game gender to which the player or GM assigns to a character or non-player character. Because the majority, if not all, the treatment of gender in role-playing games focus solely on female/male dichotomy that is what is primarily addressed here. However, it is my hope that with a more varied and equal treatment of the two opposites sides of the gender issue in role-playing games that we will see more inclusion for androgynous and other aspects of gender.

With regards to Schindehette’s post, Vivian Abraham from Gaming as Women site has a poignant response here and Sarah Darkmagic discusses the article here.

Now I know, in writing on a topic that’s a year old some may say I’m late to the party. But my perspective is; I’ve been at the party the whole time, I’m just a wallflower and I need to watch how others are dancing in order discern what the dance is about. In other words, as a cisgendered hetero white able-bodied male it is important for me to shut the hell up and listen to what non-[cis-het-white-able]-males are saying about the subject and then attempt, to the best of my ability, to empathically put myself in their shoes.

On the off chance that in reading the above articles it’s not clear what I’m addressing here is my central foci are around 3 points; 1. Art & Game-rule text in RPGs being either overtly sexist or failing to recognize that women also play the games. 2. Sexism within the game setting, “the world,” itself. 3. Self analysis of my own fantasy world both as it relates to 1 and 2.

1. Art & Game-rule text

Claudia Cangini has a wonderful post in which she talks about how she approached fantasy game art with sexual/sensual overtones (includes mildly NSFW examples of her art). Unlike Schindehette, who just passes the buck by approaching the issue of sexism in fantasy art and then saying “I’d like to dismiss the term sexism for a bit and get down to the meat of the subject. I think that the term “sexist” is convenient, inflammatory, and polarizing. It doesn’t actually address the issue that most folks are asking me to address—and that is the issue of the role and depiction of women (and I get a surprising number of requests about men as well) in fantasy.” Cangini hits it dead on by describing exactly how to address the issue; (paraphrasing) 1. Equal gender ratios of scantly clad individuals. 2. Avoiding portraying women as weaker/more passive/more victimized than men. 3. Action scenes over simple one-character posing which allows for more varied displays of the personalities (characters as “human” that are active in the world not as objectified things passively waiting for something to be done to them).

A fourth point I would include is focus on “realism” over “fantasy” for the portrayal of individuals in the fantasy art. The quotes are there because I mean for people to be drawn with a coherent internal-to-the-fantasy-world realism. The easiest example of this is how armor is drawn. Armor is for protection and if a female knight is drawn in plate mail that has her legs, midriff, arms, hell, any flesh exposed it says her sexuality is valued more than her effectiveness in combat. It says the artist, art director, and the game company value portraying women as sexual over realistic actors in the game-world to be taken seriously. It also implies that the customer who purchases such a book has the same values, whether it’s true or not, conscious or not, and the only way for the customer to disagree with the company’s choice in their portrayal of women is to either not buy the books or speak up and let the company know how they feel.

Now some at this point may think that I’m arguing that sensual/sexual images in fantasy game art is outright wrong, that there should be no depictions of scantly clad women or men in the game books. But this is an outright incorrect reading of this blog post. For example, if the art director needed the image of female knight and they still wanted to show sexuality/sensuality in the image, following Cangini points above, having the knight be in the process of removing her realistic armor with her male page to her side behind her pulling the spaulder off her shoulders, her one un-gloved hand resting gently on his leg as they look each other in the eyes tenderly…there you have a women in power in a sensual situation that implies there is more than just a “business” relationship between her and her page with a reason for showing her skin. But if the same knight is to be shown in battle, then what’s the reason for showing any flesh? The only reasonable reason would be because at some point during the battle some part of her armor had been destroyed and here the artist runs into a risk of depicting/fetishizing violence towards women (especially if the destroyed armor heavily sexualizes her at the same time). Having male and female allies in the same state of harm in the battle would help to mitigate that risk. At the very least, having another image in the book that presents a male character in the same level of harm would help to balance things out (role-playing games tend to be combat orientated so violence is, well, a fun part of the game but predominately showing women as passive victims passes into the realm of moral reprehensibility).

If art directors and artists kept those three/four simple points in mind when laying out a game book it would go a long way to saying “we value both our male and female customers.” Schindehette says about approving the Tisha character image that he “made a decision based upon the business goals, the sales channel, the audience as it was defined, and what was acceptable in the market at the time.” None of these are acceptable reasons for sexism (hint: there are none). Just as state run eugenics programs, slavery, and Japanese internment camps were morally wrong before, during, and after they occurred, agreeing to continue to promote sexism because of business goals, sales, the audience, and acceptable market practices doesn’t make it any less wrong. Producing white-supremacist literature with accompanying art meets the racists’ business goals, sales channel needs, pleases its intended audience, and is acceptable in the (racists’) market…it’s still wrong.

The text in role-playing games has, on one hand, come a long way. Most notably in the conscious use of gender-neutral pronouns or alternating between “his” and “her,” etc.

But there are other subtle issues that still exist. Sarah Darkmagic wrote up her impressions of the races handout for D&D Next where she points out that in the section on dwarves there’s the description that “Male dwarves value their beards highly and groom them very carefully.” But there is no indication of what the other half of the dwarven race “have,” the only gender distinction given as being males are slightly taller and heftier than females, and she sees this as implying that if female dwarves do not grow beards and are slighter in build then they will be seen as lesser. I tend to read it as uninformative (still sexist for being uninformative) rather than assigning any implication.

The 4th Edition D&D Player’s Handbook address both male and female dwarven grooming, “Male dwarves are often bald and braid their long beards into elaborate patterns. Female dwarves braid their hair to show clan and ancestry.” But the Pathfinder Core Rulebook entry completely supports Sarah Darkmagic’s assumption; “Male and female dwarves pride themselves on the length of their hair, and men often decorate their beards with a varity of clasps and intricate braids. A clean-shaven male dwarf is a sure sign of madness, or worse-no one familiar with their race trusts a beardless dwarf.” So the first clause of the first sentence talks about both genders, but then the rest of the description is all about male dwarves. There is no clear indication if female dwarves in the game follow the old-school “all dwarves have beards” or not and for those unfamiliar with the old school then they would assume female dwarves have no beards…essentially clean-shaven which would imply the women are the “mad” gender.

Because of the fairer treatment to the genders in the dwarf physical description section of the 4th ed. D&D Player’s Handbook I thought I would check out the “Adventurers” examples in each class section to see how they come out. Here’s what it boiled down to:

Dragonborn: male warlord, female fighter, male paladin
Dwarf: male paladin, female cleric, male fighter
Eldarin: female wizard, male rogue, female warlord
Elf: male ranger, female rogue, male cleric
Half-elf: male warlord, female warlock, male paladin
Halfling: female rogue, male ranger, female warlock
Human: male fighter, female ranger, male wizard
Tiefling: male warlock, female warlord, male rogue

Cleric: 1 Female, 1 Male
Fighter: 1 Female, 2 Male
Paladin: 0 Female, 3 Male
Ranger: 1 Female, 2 Male
Rogue: 2 Female, 2 Male
Warlock: 2 Female, 1 Male
Warlord: 2 Female, 2 Male
Wizard: 1 Female, 1 Male
Total: 10 Female, 14 Male (5:7 ratio)

While they do a good job of alternating between male/female/male examples, they don’t alternate across the race sections (if they did then the ratio would be evenly split). Additionally, the two races that get the female-majority of descriptions are the Eldarin (the most physically attractive race) and the Halflings (the most child-like). I was surprised to see that across all the races there was one female and one male cleric represented. However, it was disappointing to see no female Paladins represented and that the one place where women outnumber men is as warlocks (the stereotypical witch-class) and where men outnumber the women are in stereotypical masculine roles (fighter, paladin, and ranger). So on one hand it’s good that female adventurers were described, but on the other there are still marks of sexism there.

I did not read each entry in-depth to see if there was a predominant passive-entry into adventuring for the female entries vs. active-entry for the males.

2. Sexism within the Game Setting

The game setting, the world in which the game takes place, is different from the rules. It forms the background in which the stories of the heroes take place. It is important for the game designer to explicitly state how cultures (purely fantastic or based on real-world cultures or somewhere in between) are going to be treated in their products. “Campaign books,” the books that set out to describe the world and its inhabitants, should include a disclaimer at the very least, a trigger warning of sorts, if some or all of the world contains sexism (and racism, sexual content, etc.).

Why? Because; A. By being up front with your audience (or possible audience) you are showing you give a damn about them. You’re letting them know, up-front, what kind of content your presenting and giving them the choice to dive in or walk way based on what they think is best for them instead of letting them stumble upon things that may upset, anger, alienate, or otherwise harm them. B. It shows you, the creator, are aware of the subject matter you’ve created, that you consciously chose to include such subject matter because you feel it is necessary for the setting. C. It helps to keep you, the creator, aware that sexism is an issue, you’re prone to it and need to actively work against it.

For example, in Sarah Darkmagic’s response to Schindehette’s “Sexism in Fantasy” article, she writes, “People often step in at this point and ask why I’m bringing “real world” issues into the game. I’d like to turn the question around and ask why they are insisting on bringing “real world” discrimination into the game. Whether they like it or not, the game world of D&D has a world full of women over the age of 25. The Forgotten Realms is supposed to be a game world where women are equal to men. In a world with magic and healing, there’s no reason why women would have to be relegated to a subservient role in the world.”

This is entirely the correct way to go about designing in-game content. For what reason are gender stereotypes being promoted within a fantasy world? If the designer’s answer is “they’re not,” then it becomes important to consciously work against that in the writing. Making sure there are inns that have equal distribution of male and female waitstaff, positions of power being split between genders evenly, especially as sample sizes get larger (if you’re only looking at one position of power, then that will be filled by either one or the other gender, but in looking at 100 positions of power then the distribution should be closer to 50/50, and so on).

If the designer’s answer is “they are,” then it becomes exceedingly important for the designer to explain why. If a designer is going to go to the lengths of including in the rules something like “male humans have a -2 penalty to Intelligence at character creation,” then an explanation as to why, in this particular game-world, this is the case as well as needing to develop the human cultures around this game mechanic with the understanding that this penalizes the game-play experience of any player choosing the play a male human. But flip that around, what if the designer includes the penalty for female humans and not males? This both plays into a real-world stereotype (which is utterly false) as well as penalizing any player choosing to play a female human. For this reason, in-game mechanics that differentiate between genders are best to just not include in the game (which, thankfully, most professional games no longer include).

But what about non-mechanic differences? There’s three basic choices for the designer (with a sliding scale between them). On one side is to just not include sexism in the world. As Sarah Darkmagic pointed out above, this is the default position of the Forgotten Realms (how well it accomplishes this is another matter) for the playable races.

In the middle is to add sexism in sparingly, which is closer to what actually happens in the Forgotten Realms where; A. The majority of figures in position of power are male but there are several notable exceptions (which appears to be an unconscious outcome of the creators of the world) and B. Where there is or has been cultures with inherent sexism it’s largely been in reverse (namely the drow matriarchal society, and the pre-4th edition D&D half-drow nation of Dambrath). What’s particularly of note about the reverse sexism is that it almost always portrays the ruling class (the women) as inherently evil as if acknowledging that sexism is morally wrong while failing to recognize the predominant male powers in the rest of the world. A more conscious application of this middle road would be to include some cultures that had varying degrees of sexism, some with males in the privileged position, some with females, and others more egalitarian all the while avoiding assigning any cultural-version a predominant alignment but those with sexism being slightly more evil than the egalitarian cultures (this is not to say that sexism isn’t morally wrong, but only taking into account that the culture is comprised of both those in power and those who are not so declaring the culture evil further ignores the rest of the society).

At the other end of the extreme, a designer could go full bore into including sexism into their game world and mimic it to the worst that real world humans have created throughout their history. For me personally, I’d only be interested in playing in such a game world if a central plot to the campaign was fighting against the oppression. But it’s still a viable option, especially if the creator openly outlines how and why the world is sexist while acknowledging that sexism is morally wrong.

While on one-hand I love the drow, spider-loving demon-summoning bad-guys from below, I think they only further harm gender understanding within the game. If Greyhawk or the Forgotten Realms had more examples of non-inherently evil matriarchal societies, then the drow could be the deviate from the norm, but as it stands it’s a glaring “don’t let women into positions of power,” implication.

Drow lead into another issue: the majority of female enemies in role-playing games are often highly objectively sexualized to the point of that being their defining characteristic. Alu-demons, drow matriarchs, marilliths, nymphs, nixies, succubi/erines, all play into the “whore” archetype/stereotype as are just about any humanoid female enemy in the game, often stripped of agency (see Sarah Darkmagic’s “Drelnza, The False Disney Princess” write up). While hags, and similar monsters play into the “crone” archetype. And the damsel in distress playing into the “virgin” archetype. None of which being fully integrated complex individuals. Then, on the other hand, the monstrous races like orcs, goblins, kobolds, lizardfolk, giants, etc., predominately present masculine aspects while totally ignoring females of the population. For example, the Pathfinder prd entry on the orc only mentions gender once, and then only to describe the average male’s height and weight (implying female orcs are unimportant and won’t ever come up in game).

Deities are another area in which sexism can appear. In D&D 4th Edition, there are 19 gods detailed (the evil and chaotic evil ones only mentioned). Of those 19, 8 are female, 11 are male. Of the 8 female deities only one is Good (none are Lawful Good), 5 are Unaligned, one is Evil, and one is Chaotic Evil. Of the 11 male deities two are Lawful Good, one is Good, two are Unaligned, 5 are evil, and one is Chaotic Evil.

The female gods have the following key-words/portfolio aspects: Adventure, Autumn, Civilization, Death, Envy, Fate, Freedom, Frontier, Greed, Illusion, Knowledge, Lies, Moon, Prophecy, Scheming, Sea, Shadows, Skill, Spiders, Trade, Travel, Trickery, Treachery, Wealth, Wilderness, Winter.

The male gods have the following key-words/portfolio aspects: Artisans, Arts, Assassins, Battle, Beauty, Conquest, Creation, Darkness, Destruction, Domination, Honor, Jailers, Justice, Necromancy, Nobility, Poison, Protection, Secrets, Spring, Strength, Summer, Sun, Thunder, Time, Torturers, Tyranny, Undead, Underdark, War

So 10 out of the 26 key-words for the women are inherently negative traits (38.5%). While 10 out of 29 are for the males (34.5%, where, given the nature of the game, Battle, Conquest, and War are not considered negative nor positive).

Additionally, the female gods’ traits of Illusion, Lies, Moon, Scheming, Sea, Shadows, Trickery, and Treachery are particularly playing to stereotypes. As are the male gods’ traits of Battle, Conquest, Creation, Destruction, Domination, Honor, Justice, Nobility, Protection, Strength, Sun, Thunder, Tyranny, and War.

3. Self Analysis

So how do I hold up? From the outset of creating my fantasy world I began with the inherent decision to make the majority of my cultures (especially the human cultures) non-sexist and non-racist (where for me racism is applied to what would be called in standard D&D sub-races) but heavily species-ist (where in my campaign I define dwarves as a separate species from elves which are separate from humans, and so on). I essentially went with the idea that in a world where there are multiple sentient humanoid species then the demonizing of the “other” is going to more easily and frequently be applied to those other species than focused within the species own society (whether racially [D&D sub-races] or by gender).

No species (D&D race) in my fantasy world have gender-dependent game mechanics (like +2 to this or that attribute, skill, etc.), but I do include information on the sexual dimorphism of every playable species which includes average weights and heights for each gender or each species. I’m still open to the idea of sexual dimorphism in humans having arisen from cultural constrains, but as far as I have been able to discover there is ample evidence that sexual dimorphism differences in height and weight are inherent in our species (and even in our distant ancestors), but I just assume that even if there is a predominance of one gender being physically stronger or more resistant to pain than the other that, at least for my game world, these differences between genders translates to less than 1 point on the 3-18 attribute scale and so, rounding, there is no need to add game-mechanic modifiers based on gender. The height-weight averages are presented as just that, averages, and the players are free to choose the height and weight (within reason, no 10 ft tall, 120 lbs, humans).

However, intent does not always translate to reality. Surprisingly enough (to me), after reading Sarah Darkmagic’s complaint about no details about dwarven women in the D&D Next races write-up, I went and looked at my own write up of the dwarves and found I did the exact same thing. I described a bit on beard grooming but nothing about female dwarves (my campaign’s female dwarves are beardless). So I added in a bit about female dwarves’ grooming/hair styles. I then did a quick read-through of the rest of the species and if I mentioned only male traits then I made sure to include mirrored female traits but there were only two other noticeable (to me) instances (which I fixed). The description of dwarven grooming was the most glaring issue, where for the other species I largely don’t discuss grooming/dress-styles/etc., as I plan to address those within the specific cultural entries which I haven’t yet reached for the most part.

For my persons in position of power in the local region (human), where I’m play-testing the game-world, I wouldn’t give myself a terrible score (given my intent of making the society non-sexist). Of the 23 listed positions of highest political power, 13 are male, 10 are female, and 2 are not yet defined. But out of the 23 that are defined there are 15 noble houses (which includes the Marquis of the city), and of them, sadly, 10 are male that lead their noble house and 5 are female.

For the heads of the 9 churches in the play-testing region (where there is some overlap between noble houses), I do better, with 5 leaders being male and 4 being female where one male church leader is also head of a noble house and one female church leader is head of a noble house.

Two places that I utterly fail at are my kings lists and the deities. My kings lists are abhorrently (for a fantasy world that says sexism is minimal to non-existent) male dominated. Luckily all but one of them has been handed over to the players so I can make changes as needed before ruining consistency-of-play. For the one that has been presented to the players, there are 15 emperors of the fallen human empire, of which only 3 are female. With the empire fallen, and five major kingdoms emerging from the ashes, 2 are currently ruled by women (which I wouldn’t consider terrible if not for the 3 of 15 female emperors).

The deities have the following issues: There are 4 primal ancient and elemental gods, 3 are described as male and 1 as female where I realize that they should be dual-gendered with individual societies (and groups within those societies) recognizing/worshiping one gendered aspect or another or as a dual entity.

There are 4 children of those primal gods and they are evenly split, half male, half female. The god of day is male, the god of night is female and while the portfolio descriptions are light, day, and luck for the one and darkness, night, and dreams for the other, I have one negative epitaph for the female god, “the Sleeping Curse” and no negative titles for the male god. The other two gods, assigned to the two moons, are more neutral but their portfolios do play slightly into sexist/stereotypical ideals with the female god being assigned thought and patience while the male god is action and impetuousness.

These 4 children gods should be changed like the primal gods to be dual-gendered and dependent on the culture worshiping them.

Next I have the Progenitor Gods and the Gods of Civilization. The Progenitor gods are the gods of the species, considered by each species to be their creator, and with them I was intent upon the sexism inherent in the species. The minotaurs, lizardfolk, elves, and kobolds all have a dual-gender “father/mother” god that created them (at least as those species view themselves). The humans, dwarves, and orcs have both a male and female progenitor god, they were created by their two gods joining in some way. Finally the gnolls and goblins only have one god, male and female respectively which reflects the sexism inherent in their cultures.

The gods of civilization number 19 in total. 7 are female and 12 are male, which is a worse ratio than the 4th edition D&D ratio especially considering that the humans are supposed to be non-sexist in my world and I include the specific statement about the civilized gods that “Unless otherwise noted, the [civilized] gods are presented in the way that the…humans interpret them, both in their typical descriptions and their dogma.” Given the number of alternate universes out there it seems that, among those where the humans have non-sexist cultures, there should be a few whose pantheons are more female than male. In which case there are already 2 of the civilized gods that I can easily change to female and I’ll have to take my time to see which other one to switch.

It’s highly probably that other instances of sexism are in my project. But I will be looking for them with the intent of changing them where not appropriate/unintended and explicitly pointing them out as a moral lacking in the in-game society where it is intended.

Discovering Privilege

Monday, August 27th, 2012

I’d always been a pro-equality kind of cisgendered white male so after some friends pointed out that the used miata that I bought in ‘07 is a car that has been embraced by the gay community (a fact I never went to check, just accepted as I’m not a ‘car guy’ so what do I know about who likes what kind of cars) I didn’t really see any issue with that. I mean come on, we’re they warning me because they thought it would turn be gay or did they just think my ‘manliness’ would be diminished? Regardless, I enjoyed driving the car and liked the idea that (at least in my head) it was a pro-gay statement to drive it around.

Less that six months after getting it, I was pulling on to a college campus and a young white man leaned out the passenger window of a large truck and yelled, “faggot,” at me as they passed by. So angry, so full of hate and violence was that word issued from his mouth, that I was truly afraid. I watched in my mirrors to make sure the truck didn’t turn around. I was shaking with the adrenaline.

Once the truck was out of sight, that is when it hit me; gay men (and other minorities in general) have to live with that fear every day and the less ‘concealable’ the person of the minority is within the larger group, the higher risk for daily incidents.

This was a huge moment for me. It was the liminal temporal space between being aware that there’s a problem vs. seeing the problem first hand. For a brief moment my privilege was pulled back and I felt the problem.

For the 1st year or so of having the Miata there was a total of three times that this happened. The last time I was chased for two miles by a young couple, the woman spat on my car as they pulled along side of me. They pulled in front of me to try to make me stop or hit them (I’m not sure which).

But I didn’t have a name for it, this awakening to the reality that I never before had had to face. “Privilege”…never heard of it. There was just an awakening but being largely mute in how to express it, how to talk about it with friends and family.

Then the elevator incident happened with Rebecca Watson. Privilege was talked about throughout the blogs on the subject. The first time I saw it in a post I almost commented “what’s privilege” but thankfully I had learned of that whole ‘google’ thing so instead of making everyone answer my question (and risk coming off as a troll) I googled and read.

It’s wonderful to find a language to express the thoughts and ideas one has. And I have Skepchick and FtB to thank for that/this continuing education. Thank you.

So that’s it. That’s my realizing my own privilege (at least the parts I have become aware of…it’s looking to be one of those ongoing life-learning experiences).  That unless I’m driving in a Miata I largely don’t ever have to worry about someone targeting me for a hate crime. That I can walk down dark streets at night without, largely, having to be afraid. My privilege protects me from fear…but it doesn’t mean that that fear, for those that experience it, isn’t real nor is the source of the fear…those who would do harm to others simply because they are “different,” whether verbally or physically, not real. It is, and they are. And that’s a world I don’t want to promote.

Anti-Privilege

Monday, June 25th, 2012

A response to the poem: Privilege: A Free-Verse Poem

You level your accusations at me,
Claiming I fly on privileged pedestal,
Lording danglely bits and skin so creamy
Over minority multitudes below.

Eternity in a moment passes
In my mind as I rail and scoff and frown
And deny each and every line of text
Inscribed round that gauntlet that you’ve thrown down

As I set my charge to defend against
Your accusations, your criticisms,
Ready for rebuttal, raging to rebuke,
A bit of calm breaks through the clouded thoughts

And I see.

This entire time my ardent privileged passion
Has been making this about me but
It’s about you.

Who am I to tell you what you feel,
What you experience.
What am I when I fail to acknowledge your stated case,
When I deny your reason as misplaced passion,
What am I but monster, terrible and cunning,
That invites you to the table, gives you a chair,
And on listening to your concerns just compliments your hair,
Or, if I am annoyed or angered by your thoughts
Retort with shaming words as if to remove
All at once from you all your worth
As if your worth was mine to give or take
All because I’ve lacked imagination, empathy,
And the courtesy to pause just a moment longer,
To look you eye to eye to eye to eye,
And try to see the world from where you stand.

I think I see, I hope I see, that light between the clouded thoughts
Which will help remind me that when you are speaking
That I shut up; Listen.

And when you are talking, well, to paraphrase;
I shouldn’t use the time that you’re talking,
To think about what I’m going to say next.

For each of us breathes together within this world
And I’d rather take a rusted blade to my privileged wings
And painfully acknowledge when I am wrong
Than live together apart, unequal.
For each step towards equal footing,
Each step that pushes the pedestal into the grass
Brings more boots to bear on privilege’s
Hoary-headed misogynist ass.

How the History Channel Screws Us, part 2

Tuesday, January 31st, 2012

Prophets of Doom is a year old History Channel program (I know, I’m late to the party once again) which is on youtube here. It’s caption reads:

“Today’s world has troubles unique to its time in history, from the global financial crisis to technological meltdowns to full-scale, computerized global war. HISTORY profiles three men “modern prophets” from different disciplines and with different theories who all believe America is on the decline, and will ultimately meet its end.”

Well, I’m no optimist, but I’m also very wary of “prophets” especially prophets of doom and gloom. Anyway, I was just told about this program today and gave it a shot. I got 30 minutes into it before I couldn’t take anymore, here’s why:

The Prophets:

Michael Ruppert
Michael Ruppert is quoted as saying that he is relocated to Sonoma County, CA because it would be a safer location in the event of a societal collapse (http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Michael_Ruppert). Ha! You know this guy has to be nuts. :) . Prediction 1: “By this time next year, I’m certain we won’t recognize the United States of America.” Original Air Date of the show: Jan 5th, 2011.So much for that. In fact, with the stagnant economy, America looks just about exactly like it did in Jan of 2011.

I love how he goes back to the Roman Empire but just kind of ignores how the British Empire “collapsed” …which is far closer in similarity and structure to the US now. The thing so many fail to grasp about the fall of the Roman Empire is that it’s complex and that complexity is situated within the context of ~400 AD, he likens terrorist attacks and drug cartels to invading horde armies! The Visigoths were estimated to have bolstered their army for the sacking Rome in 410 AD with around 30,000 escaped slaves from Italy itself. 30,000, mostly captured “barbarians” in addition to the Visigoth army. Where in the US are there 30,000 captured and enslaved enemy combatants? But for 40 or so years prior to this, Rome lost battles to the Persians and the Goths. In addition, one argument is that by accepting Christianity Rome became more passive, less violent, so how did they bolster their armies…by using “barbarian” mercenaries. And they were not treated well. Not even 10 minutes in to the program and it’s already driving me nuts with its simplistic world view. Then he confuses evolution and natural law with the fall of nations. Did the Romans just disappear after 473 AD? Nope. Did the Roman government completely go away…nope, it just concentrated itself in the east around Constantinople. When the British Empire “fell” did the Britons just disappear? Nope, they’re still there and making some fine television shows…and their Empire, while smaller and not as reigned in under one central rule still exists under the Commonwealth (Australia, Canada, etc.). So to liken the dinosaurs dying out to the fall of a nation is a bit over the top and fallacious. His whole Titanic analogy is just bollucks. Otherwise, he’s making the claim that in order to sustain ourselves, let alone grow, we need to find alternate sources of fuel/energy. Duh.

Nathan Hagens
I couldn’t find anything negative on him in a quick search, though he was a Vice President at the investment firms Salomon Brothers and Lehman Brothers (http://www.postcarbon.org/person/36233-nate-hagens) but I couldn’t find out when that was. So the key question for him is did he wait until the financial collapse in 2008 to happen and then go around saying how terrible everything is or did he quit before the collapse and warn against it happening?

But his first major comment, “Capitalism as going to have to be retooled or it can go completely by the way side. What we have now has been a failure.” Really, a failure? It’s not perfect, no, but it can adapt and has adapted. Capitalism has brought about the most benefits to humanity than any other economic model. Otherwise, he’s making the claim that in order to sustain ourselves, let alone grow, we need to find alternate sources of fuel/energy. Duh. And his overall economic-debt issue comments…well, yeah. It’s not a good situation we’re in, which means in order to fix it military spending has to be reduced and taxes have to be raised…at least as a start.

Addressing climate change is paramount because, even if global warming was not man made (which all current evidence points to as being the case: that it is man made), a ) finding new energy sources (including investing in “old” ones such as nuclear) will help to mitigate the depletion of fossil fuels, b ) investing in new technologies will help the economy.

John Cronin
Again, seems to be a legitimate investigator and water is going, or rather is, a huge global issue for humanity. But his comments about the Sumerians…pulling it out of his ass. Sorry. The Sumerians took over the region from the Ubaidians sometime around 4000 BC and then the Akkadians, seeing how awesome the region was, conquered the Sumerians around 2270 BC, then after 180 (that’s like the length of time of the United States of America from its founding to post WWII !) the Sumerians regained some control, and then the freakin’ barbarian “hill people,” the Gutians overran the place and figured civilization was just bunk where they just released all the livestock to roam the land and ignored the irrigation systems and agriculture.

I’m done. I made it about 30 minutes into it. I hate the History Channel and everything it produces. It’s ratings grabbing bullshit even if they wrap that bullshit around nuggets of truth or facts, the History Channel is not worth watching unless you’re in the mood to be scared or get angry.

America’s top concerns (no particular order), as I understand them:
Economic reform. Capitalism is the best method, but completely free capitalism doesn’t work well. There needs to be regulation to guard against the greed and corruption, or even just the accepting to be ignorant of the ramifications of their actions, that humans are naturally going to gravitate towards.
Climate change. The Earth’s biosphere is warming up and humanity is largely to blame, working on bringing humanity to a neutral impact level will address other issues as well such as fossil fuel dependance and water shortage. Even if humanity was not to blame, working on bringing humanity to a neutral impact level develops so many other boons for our species and the biosphere.
Religious fundamentalism. Regardless of the religion, it’s the fundamentalism that kills; whether it’s Islam wanting to kill all the unbelievers or Christianity dumbing down science to raise up their sheep herder myths or new age bullshit rallying behind discredited research that vaccines cause autism or the protection of child rapists from the secular justice they deserve.
Political reform. Polarizing rhetoric, “Cash is free speech,” Super Pacs, Back room lobbying, all of it breaks the system and fosters an environment where the other issues can continue to breed.
Education reform. Science is what dictates a prosperous people. From the invention of agriculture to the invention of longitude and latitude and accurate clocks to the microchip…the countries that have access to the best technology have prospered the most. Science is what gives us the tools to accurately confront the issues before us and science must be key in education. Art, literature, history, these are the subjects that teach us what it has meant and means to be human, in all it’s terror and beauty, but science is what allows us to survive to pass the rest on to future generations.
Human equality. Ensuring the equal protection and rights under the law to every human citizen, regardless of race, creed, gender, origin, sexuality, religion, is paramount to an ethical and moral nation.

These are real, immediate and long term goals that if honestly and rationally approached will help ensure the survival of the United States of America for another 236 years and more. And the History Channel, with its bullshit title name, isn’t helping.

But shit happens, things decay. The Yellowstone super volcano could erupt any year now, an asteroid impact could make for a lousy decade long winter or two, bird flu could make the airborne human-to-human jump and wipe out over half of everyone on the planet, Kermit the frog could be assassinated by the Black Hand initiating a global nuclear war.

The Internet Bible

Friday, August 19th, 2011

Part 1 of 3 is finished. The Internet Bible, or Biblios delasel Internetus in the old tongue in cheek, The Older Stuff is complete and uploaded to my website under the non-fiction section. It mildly parodies the Old Testament and Upanishads.

A direct link to the pdf is here.

Enjoy and heed the words therein well :)

Sanity and or Fear Reporting Coverage

Saturday, October 30th, 2010

I only caught the tail end of the Stewart/Colbert Rally to Restore Sanity and or Fear. A few hours later I wondered what the big media’s take was on the whole thing so I went to CNN and read their main entry on it. After reading that I went to fox and read their take. Then I read MSNBC’s account.

While reading MSNBC’s account I realized that Fox and MSNBC were doing some copy-pasting from the Associated Press’ article so I looked that up and read it (Using AP material isn’t new or strange and Fox states “The Associated Press contributed to this report” and MSNBC gave credit to the whole AP article as they didn’t change anything, just a total copy-paste).

This got me interested in looking at what was added, changed, or not included to the Fox article from the AP version and after a little bit here’s some interesting things…

Fox News:

“The crowds were festive, goofy, disillusioned with the state of politics if not the nation, and ready to play nice at a gathering called to counter all the shouting and flying insults of these polarized times. So were the hosts.”

AP Text used:

“Part comedy show, part pep talk, the rally drew together tens of thousands stretched across an expanse of the National Mall, a festive congregation of the goofy and the politically disenchanted. ” and from another paragraph, “The idea was to provide a counterweight to all the shouting and flying insults of these polarized times. But there were political undertones, too, pushing back against conservatives ahead of Tuesday’s election.”

Another interesting change;

AP original:

“In the shadow of the Capitol and the election, comedians Jon Stewart and Stephen Colbert entertained a huge throng Saturday at a “sanity” rally poking fun at the nation’s ill-tempered politics, fear-mongers and doomsayers.”

Fox News:

“Just three days before pivotal midterm elections, comedians Jon Stewart and Stephen Colbert threw a “sanity” rally in the shadow of the Capitol that organizers insisted wasn’t about politics.

“But there were political undertones to Saturday’s event as the two Comedy Central hosts entertained a huge throng stretched alongside the National Mall by poking fun at the nation’s diversity and its ill-tempered politics.”

What’s interesting here is the decision on Fox’s part to change the AP’s “fear-mongers and doomsayers” to “nation’s diversity.”

An interesting omission on Fox’s part comes from the following:

AP:

“Colbert, who poses as an ultraconservative on his show, played the personification of fear at the rally. He arrived on stage in a capsule like a rescued Chilean miner, from a supposed underground bunker. He pretended to distrust all Muslims until one of his heroes, basketball great Kareem Abdul-Jabbar, who is Muslim, came on the stage.”

Fox News:

“Colbert arrived on stage like a rescued Chilean mine worker, in a capsule from a supposed underground bunker, after Stewart made a show of counting the crowd, tens of thousands strong, one by one.”

The Fox News article does not mention Kareem or the interplay between the basketball great and Colbert.

There are other smaller changes as well, such as Fox News inserting “especially” in the AP’s sentence of “Stewart is [especially] popular with Democrats and independents…”

Despite the written word being mostly dead, textual analysis can shine a nice light on the values of those writing the words. Where with one text you can only say that the whole of the text was important to the author, but with two texts, one based primarily on the first, you can see not only what the second author found important to transcribe and in what sense, but also what wasn’t important (to them) at was left out.

Everything you know…

Tuesday, August 31st, 2010

…is wrong.

* Your memory is manipulated by being told “facts” repeatedly.
* Your brain ignores things you aren’t focusing on.
* Your brain makes shit up to fill in the gaps.
* Your brain will tell you a manipulated image fits with your memory of the event.
* Your mood during an event affects how, and if, you will remember that event.
The above via Cracked.com

“Everything you know is wrong.” You’re just going to end up like that old fart on the porch bitching about “the good old days.” But those good old days were just when mommy and daddy were protecting you from how bad everything was and they remember their good old days when grandma and grandpa were protecting them and grandma and grandpa have their silver-lining memories, but it’s all bullshit. The 2000’s were filled with wars abroad, sinking economy, city-destroying hurricanes, tsunami of 04, 9/11. The 90’s had near-impeachments, home-grown terrorists, the Macarena. The 80’s, recession, savings and loans, Chernobal, terrible hairstyles. The 70’s vietnam and the decade began with Kent State. The 60’s vietnam and threat of nuclear war. The 50’s social conformity with lynchings, not to mention Stalin’s happy works in the East. The 40’s, hell, half of that was dealing with Hitler. The 30’s, rise of facism, the Great Depression. The 20’s, prohibition and the crash. The 10’s, the Great War and the Spanish Flu. And so on. Like the 1800’s were any better…get sick, here get hooked on laudnum. 1700’s…no toilet paper no bidets. 1600’s…if you have a vagina and an opinion you’re probably a witch, better burn you. And so on and so on. In the past, if something pissed you off it was probably another person and you’d either kill them or they’d kill you, either way it sucked. Today, if something pisses you off it’s probably some piece of technology, your phone, car, computer, and all you can do is watch your blood pressure rise and kill you slowly. But I’m probably wrong.

Repetition breeds acceptance. Those talking heads on tv…they’re just humans who are fed information from other humans and they’re just as wrong about everything as we are and they keep repeating it and we keep hearing it and it’s wrong reinforcing wrong. And once you accept something as fact, even when you’re presented with undeniable evidence proving how wrong what you think you know is…you’ll just deny it, or ignore it, or make some shit up so that you can claim the evidence is faulty. I went to dinner with my wife the other day and I said it was my first time eating there. She said “no, we’ve eaten here twice before but back in the 90’s.” I don’t remember it. She does. We’re probably both making shit up. If I found the receipt would I then believe her? I’d like to think so, but if it wasn’t from my bank, my card, then I’d probably make some shit up like, “well, you must have went there with someone else.” If I went through both her and my bank statements during those years and found no evidence would she believe me? I’d like to think so, but she’d probably just say, “we probably paid in cash.” On the bright side, the more your loved ones say to you, “I love you,” then you can bet they’re convincing themselves of the fact more and more each time they say it. But I’m probably wrong.

Hell, even the five claims above are probably all bullshit…just humanity trying to convince itself that we know why we don’t know and now we’re working on convincing ourselves that we do. But we don’t. But I’m probably wrong. But I know who’s right (not that you’ll believe me because you’re already convincing yourself that everything I’m saying is bullshit): Weird Al Yankovic. And with that, I leave you with his lyrics to his song, “Everything you know is wrong.”

I was driving on the freeway in the fast lane
With a rabid wolverine in my underwear
When suddenly a guy behind me in the back seat
Popped right up and cupped his hands across my eyes

I guessed, “Is it Uncle Frank or Cousin Louie?”
“Is it Bob or Joe or Walter?”
“Could it be Bill or Jim or Ed or Bernie or Steve?”
I probably would have kept on guessing
But about that time we crashed into the truck

And as I’m laying bleeding there on the asphalt
Finally I recognize the face of my hibachi dealer
Who takes off his prosthetic lips and tells me

Everything you know is wrong
Black is white, up is down and short is long
And everything you thought was just so
Important doesn’t matter

Everything you know is wrong
Just forget the words and sing along
All you need to understand is
Everything you know is wrong

I was walkin’ to the kitchen for some Golden Grahams
When I accidentally stepped into an alternate dimension
And soon I was abducted by some aliens from space
Who kinda looked like Jamie Farr

They sucked out my internal organs
And they took some polaroids
And said I was a darn good sport
And as a way of saying thank you
They offered to transport me back to
Any point in history that I would care to go

And so I had them send me back to last Thursday night
So I could pay my phone bill on time
Just then the floating disembodied head of
Colonel Sanders started yelling

Everything you know is wrong
Black is white, up is down and short is long
And everything you thought was just so
Important doesn’t matter

Everything you know is wrong
Just forget the words and sing along
All you need to understand is
Everything you know is wrong

I was just about to mail a letter to my evil twin
When I got a nasty papercut
And, well, to make a long story short
It got infected and I died

So now I’m up in heaven with St. Peter
By the pearly gates
And it’s obvious he doesn’t like
The Nehru jacket that I’m wearing
He tells me that they’ve got a dress code

Well, he lets me into heaven anyway
But I get the room next to the noisy ice machine
For all eternity
And every day he runs by screaming

Everything you know is wrong
Black is white, up is down and short is long
And everything you used to think was so important
Doesn’t really matter anymore
Because the simple fact remains that

Everything you know is wrong
Just forget the words and sing along
All you need to understand is
Everything you know is wrong
Everything you know is wrong

There She Stands (an attack against an 18 year old valedictorian)

Wednesday, August 4th, 2010

A friend of my pointed out this transcript of a high school valedictorian speech via Facebook and asked for a 5-7 sentence opinion response from his Facebook friends. He asked,

“Is this just Generation Whine (err, Generation Y) hippie angst, or is this constructive criticism of the American schooling system?”

Well, 5-7 sentences doesn’t quite seem enough to do such a piece justice, so I’m commenting here so that I have all the room I need to expound upon my thoughts about this valedictorian’s thoughts.

Why Erica Goldson is right

If you make it 18 ± 1 years, from the womb through the public educational system, and are not at least a little bit pissed off then you aren’t being a good teenager. You don’t have to be angry at the school system, but you better be angry about something. The “system” is what teenagers should be angry about, it’s what they are good at being angry about. They exist in a privileged position which is intellectually luxurious, though not all may not be aware of it. For many of them they are just becoming aware of the horrors of adulthood; the bills, taxes, responsibilities, and most horrific of all the freedoms which adulthood bestows juxtaposed against their needs, wants, and desires. Form their vantage point they can see these modern terrors from the, relatively, safe dual nest; home and school. And it is terrifying (and exciting).

This student’s angst allowed her to get up before peers and authorities to effectively say, “I’m mad as hell and I’m not going to take it anymore!” She effectively becomes the external voice of internal reflection about the self’s position within society, crying out “think for yourself!” For that, it is the perfect speech.

Why Erica Goldson fails

One way that this valedictorian fails in an exceptionally fundamental way is that she fails to recognize her responsibility to herself and the system.

“I excelled at every subject just for the purpose of excelling, not learning. And quite frankly, now I’m scared.”

As well she should be, for she later on goes on to say,

“…if it wasn’t for the rare occurrence of an avant-garde tenth grade English teacher… who allowed me to open my mind and ask questions before accepting textbook doctrine, I would have been doomed.”

The assumption here that I’m making is that it was in tenth grade that this tenth grade English teacher opened her mind. This means that her mind was open for two years, at least, and she was still unable to take responsibility for her role in the system. And regardless of the time of this mind-opening experience (unless it was during the 11th hour of her school career), it still indicates that despite learning of other avenues to pursue, she still chose to excel for the sole purpose of excelling. Like many teenagers, she fails to take responsibility and places blame on everything else…or in this case squarely on the public education system.

Erica also fails in her understanding of critical thinking and the application thereof. She claims,

“doesn’t it perturb you to learn about the idea of “critical thinking.” Is there really such a thing as “uncritically thinking?” To think is to process information in order to form an opinion. But if we are not critical when processing this information, are we really thinking? Or are we mindlessly accepting other opinions as truth? “

She may be correct in her statement that “To think is to process information in order to form an opinion.” But that is not critical thinking. To think critically is to process information, while reflecting on that process, in order to form more and more accurate opinions. Americans in the early 1800’s processed information on the color of humanity’s flesh and many formed the opinion that the darker the color of that flesh the less human those people were. This was not critical thinking, but they still thought…just poorly.

Even in her speech she shows a lack of “critical” thought. A few examples are as follows:

She makes this statement at the outset of her speech,

“We are so focused on a goal, whether it be passing a test, or graduating as first in the class.”

And later goes on to say,

“But now, I have successfully shown that I was the best slave.  I did what I was told to the extreme. While others sat in class and doodled to later become great artists, I sat in class to take notes and become a great test-taker. While others would come to class without their homework done because they were reading about an interest of theirs, I never missed an assignment. While others were creating music and writing lyrics, I decided to do extra credit, even though I never needed it.”

She says “We are so focus on a goal…” but she’s only talking about herself and admits that others were not focus on her same goal, the goal which she espouses is all the educational system wants from her. She points out that other students were not mindlessly attempting to excel just for the sake of excelling but pursing their own interests such as art, literature, and music. She flippantly uses the word “slave” without taking into consideration that the real slaves of American history had a derogatory label for the best, most acquiescing, slave; “uncle tom.” While others sought to find their own individuality she claims she did not and then goes on to link the modern public educational system to the violence, rape, and torture of slavery.

From her high school’s own website,

“Students can take Advanced Placement (AP) courses in American History, Art, Biology, Calculus, English, European History, and Physics.  Our students may also take college credit courses through the New Visions Program and the State University of New York at Albany, as well as a variety of other colleges and universities throughout the region.  In addition, we offer Honors courses in English, Math and Science, as well as accelerated courses in Foreign Language, Math and Science. Our Music Department also is very active presenting four concerts each year, as well as our spring musical, and the Fine Arts Department showcases student work in a variety of venues.

“Coxsackie-Athens High School offers many unique learning opportunities for students. For example, students can register for electives such as Computer Assisted Design (CAD), E-Commerce, Entrepreneurship, Environmental Science, German, and Sculpture.”

Unless her school is actively lying about the programs offered, she had choices had she looked for them. She is no slave and she is uncritically thinking in thinking so.

She goes on to say,

“Between these cinderblock walls, we are all expected to be the same. We are trained to ace every standardized test, and those who deviate and see light through a different lens are worthless to the scheme of public education, and therefore viewed with contempt.”

Who is it, that she thinks, that expects all the students to be the same? In her four or so years of high school did she, honestly, experience this from any educator? Even if all her teachers treated her like a drone…what about her avant-garde English teacher? Surely that educator didn’t see non-conforming “slaves” as worthless, viewing them with contempt. If acing standardized tests was the main focal point for her school then she lacks the empathy and critical analysis to understand that her teachers have to balance good education with government standards.

Later she states,

“And now here I am in a world guided by fear, a world suppressing the uniqueness that lies inside each of us…”

How can she, critically, make this claim? As a student I wore my hair long, walked with a staff, and sat in the quad pretending to be in an WWII AA battery shooting at the fighter planes flying out of El Toro Marine Base while yelling, “Luftwaffe!” and my impression was most of my educators liked me; they at least tolerated me. If I saw students doing the same today, I’d probably hand them imaginary ammunition. While my argument here is ad hominem, I use it as a single data point to negate her all-encompassing statement that the world (all people) are out to suppress uniqueness in the individuals that constitute its whole.

Erica next uses a quote from 1924 about how “The aim [of U.S. public education] is simply to reduce as many individuals as possible to the same safe level, to breed and train a standardized citizenry, to put down dissent and originality. That is its aim in the United States.” Yet nation-wide “high-school” level education had barely reach its thirtieth year and the General Education Board’s book, A Modern School was only published 8 years prior to 1924. Cherry picking one quote, from 86 years ago, is far from a critical analysis of the public education system in 2010. Far better would it have been to find quotes from modern authors pointing out the failings of standardized testing.

She continues,

“…a world where we can either acquiesce to the inhuman nonsense of corporatism and materialism or insist on change.”

Rallying valiantly against corporations and material concerns, especially in the light of the recent Wall Street/Banking fiascoes and the BP oil disaster, is always an easy route to take. But calling it “inhuman nonsense”  lacks critical thinking. Without humanity there would be no corporations and no materialism. For good or ill, the ability for individuals to incorporate in order to produce goods and services that are both needed and wanted, has led to this society that has allowed her to make a speech in New York and for people from around the world to comment on it. Viewing the world in strictly black and white is an uncritical attempt to force one’s perceptions on others.

Further on she says,

“We are more than robotic bookshelves, conditioned to blurt out facts we were taught in school. We are all very special, every human on this planet is so special, so aren’t we all deserving of something better, of using our minds for innovation, rather than memorization, for creativity, rather than futile activity, for rumination rather than stagnation? We are not here to get a degree, to then get a job, so we can consume industry-approved placation after placation. There is more, and more still. “

She is correct! But she fails to see how public education helps to foster and empower individual creativity. No one would argue that public schooling is perfect, but it gives its students a place in which they can explore and be introduced to many facets of humanity. You get the ground work in public school, a basic education for a basic understanding of human endeavor. How you, how she, uses those basics is the mark of her individuality.

Of all the things that Erica Goldson says in speech, the next words out of her mouth are the most insulting,

“The saddest part is that the majority of students don’t have the opportunity to reflect as I did. The majority of students are put through the same brainwashing techniques in order to create a complacent labor force working in the interests of large corporations and secretive government, and worst of all, they are completely unaware of it.”

Here, from her pedestal, she essentially says to her peers, “the rest of you are just dumb fucks.” She projects her own insecurities onto her classmates while bolstering her own ego by claiming that she occupies a special position in both time and place where only she is able to see the truth. She extols the power of the individual while giving no credit to the individuals listening to her speech. And to add insult to injury she implies that they are relieved of their responsibility as individuals because they are brainwashed and unaware of it.

She continues with,

“We are anything we want to be – but only if we have an educational system that supports us rather than holds us down.”

Again, it’s all the educational systems fault. Erica Goldson is her own brainwashing propaganda totalitarian establishment forcing herself to view the world through one specially constructed (but not by any corporation, of course) lens.

The rest of her speech, had she kept her focus on the effects of enforced standardized testing and how it can place more importance on getting the correct answers on tests rather than understanding why an answer would be correct on a test, is inspirational and exceptional.

Yet towards the very end she wavers and says,

“I am not standing here as valedictorian by myself. I was molded by my environment, by all of my peers who are sitting here watching me. I couldn’t have accomplished this without all of you. It was all of you who truly made me the person I am today.”

Which could be taken as her peers woke her up and made her think about her position within society, but based on the majority of her statements in this speech it contradicts her. Her brainwashed propaganda swallowing peers molded her into a (critically) thinking individual? She is either being uncritical in her reasoning or slyly insulting by saying if it wasn’t for you dumb bastards I would have had to work harder to become valedictorian.

She ends her speech with what I can only assume is sarcasm,

“I hope this farewell is more of a “see you later” when we are all working together to rear a pedagogic movement. But first, let’s go get those pieces of paper that tell us that we’re smart enough to do so!”

She insults her peers as brainwashed sheep and then hopes to work with them to change the system that they blindly follow and then accepts the system by following in the least educational aspect of the educational system…the pomp and circumstance of the graduation ceremony. If Erica’s convictions were more critically thought through she should have left the stage at this moment, ignored the “pieces of paper” to be handed out, and walked with her back to the gathering with a rear-facing middle finger raise high.

So, in conclusion, to answer my friend whether this was just teenage whining (regardless of the generation) or constructive criticism of the school system…80% the former, 20% the latter.

Epochs, Spheres, and Friends

Saturday, March 20th, 2010

I like history; the analysis of the temporal flow as experienced and expressed by humanity. I like learning about ancient battles almost as much as I like learning about the socio-political events that led up to those battles almost as much I as like learning about the interesting insights into human life, like there’s a bit of ancient Egyptian (bathroom-stall-style) graffiti showing (possibly) the pharaoh Hatshepsut (1473-1458 BC) having sex with one of her courtiers.

Egyptian Graffiti (from http://www.thekeep.org/~kunoichi/kunoichi/themestream/sexuality.html, no original source photo info found)

I especially like the organization of the historical record into different time frames, or epochs (non-geological of course). The Old Kingdom, Classical era, the Medieval period, the Enlightenment,  and so on. Of course, these classifications apply to specific geographic regions and cultures. Europe may have been in the “Dark Ages” from ~ 500 – 1000 AD, but this period saw the rise of the Tang Dynasty in China, the Nara period in Japan, and the Classic period of the Maya.

While these periods can sometimes be defined with a specific date, as with the ascension of an emperor or the sacking of a city, the demarcation lines are far more nebulous. It is not as if the with the fall of the Western Roman Empire (WRE) in 476 AD all the educated Romans forgot how to read. The WRE was already crumbling before the Germanic revolt, as Britain had been abandoned 69 years earlier, then Rome was sacked three years later  in 410 AD, and of course the Huns were having their fun around 444 AD.

In my own brief existence on this planet I’ve found that, long before pursuing history in academia, I loosely structured my life in similar epochs. But instead of using dates to demarcate historical periods I’ve used my friends and my closeness to them. These epochs could almost be defined in geographical terms, but I’ve found that using friendship has give a far more satisfying analysis as “what is said about men often has as much influence on their lives, and particularly on their destinies, as what they do” (Les Misérables, Hugo) and who should say the most about us but our friends.

I also realized, early on, that I had different spheres of friends; in high school terms it’s cliques. But I rather dislike the term cliques so I use the term spheres because it was apparent that while social groups do coalesce I rarely, if ever, encountered the stereotyped shunning of others outside one’s predominant sphere (at least in high school, in middle school the exclusivity of the spheres was more pronounced, at least in my own experience).

Below is a rough outline of the major epochs and spheres in my life. This is not definitive and it is the first time I’ve put them down in a concrete list. It’s also not meant to indicate value. It is a list of friendship groups, the key-word being “friend”; valued humans in my life, and is in roughly chronological order.

  1. Pre-history Epoch, a cloudy era of half-remembered events.
  2. Elementary Epoch, the era of first friendships
    • Camel Rock Sphere (after-school friends)
    • Mountain View Sphere (school friends)
    • Red Desert Sphere (individuals living outside the first two spheres)
  3. Dark Ages (Middle-school)
    • Us Geeky Few Sphere (school friends)
    • The Great Vintage Sphere (after-school friends)
  4. Silver Age of Gaming
    • Dice & Pipe-bombs Sphere (after-school friends)
    • Donut World Sphere (school friends)
    • “Somebody bring me a brick” Sphere (football/wrestling friends)
    • SLO Excursion Sphere (summer friends)
  5. Golden Age of Gaming
    • Shadowrunners (gamer friends)
    • Volvo Treeforts (school friends)
    • Beautiful Underworld (neuvo-beatnik friends)
    • Thespians (theater friends)
    • Coffee Shop Nights (work friends)
  6. Northern Sojourning
    • Traminer and Beyond Sphere (college friends)
    • Bookstore Gamers Sphere (work friends)
    • Camino Calligula Sphere
    • Nuevo-Beatniks part Duex Sphere
  7. Costa Mesa Codex
    • The Crew Sphere (boat-drinks)
    • Rizzolirow Sphere (work friends)
    • Lovage Sphere (starting a family)
  8. New Roots
    • FizziksFreaks Sphere (college/work friends)
    • New Golden Age Gamers Sphere (gamer friends)
  9. Realms of Chaos (present)
    • Sonoma E/PO Sphere (work friends)
    • Voodoo Sphere (work friends)
    • Condor Crew Sphere (work friends)
    • New Golden Age Gamers Continuation Sphere
    • One Sphere to Rule Them All (Social Networks tying all the spheres and Epochs together)